You may have noticed the short list of blogs in the right hand column of this blog. I am pleased to announce that I have found another.
The Hand Made Dress is a blog written by a mother of three and avid sewer (as in she sews, not she's underground). She posts about family and sewing and is soon opening up an online store for sewing stuffs, not to mention all her nifty sewing and crocheting tips. I find her refreshing after all the mainstream commercial clothing producers. So check her out!
P.S. Her kids are so cute :)
Sunday, March 30, 2008
Saturday, March 15, 2008
I had a good dream last night. In the middle of a bad dream, but I had a good dream none the less. In the midst of basketball teams mourning their murdered team mates and some guy who was stocking me rather overtly but I couldn't find my husband and unfinished business with high-school friends, there was a little bit of... I don't know... resolution.
It was a dream within a dream, because I was in a library in the first dream and I fell asleep while working on my homework. It was linear, which means that I was paying attention to one thing as it unfolded and I was completely unaware of any other story or plot in my other dreams while in this dream. I could hear and sense the memory of music and incense when I first woke up and, and I'm glad I remembered then because I only remember the memory of remembering now. It was sweet and clear. Unlike anything else. There was also only one person other than myself in the dream but I never saw her, I could only hear her voice and see what she wrote, although I still have the vague sense that her actual body was there, I just am not able to remember it. Besides, I was much more captured by what she was writing than what she looked like. She wrote a story, all of which I can't remember, and especially not exactly what she wrote, but it's a story I know well.
My salvation.
She started at the beginning, before the beginning, with the parts we don't know. While reading aloud as she wrote, or did she sing, or was it the same thing. She wrote it all in short understandable sentences. Everything. The what, the why, the how. Every step, every reason. From Adam to Noah to Abraham to Jacob and Issac. To David and, in the end, to Jesus. But she wasn't writing the human side. She was writing God's side. For a brief moment in my whole life, the entire reason for everything there is and everything there will be was written before me in black ink that seeped into the parchment.
But the part that made me remember, the part that made me actually get up to write it down, was the part that I carried with me back into my other dreams, the part she wrote at the end. In regards to my salvation: AFFIRMED. COMPLETED. RESOLVED. SEALED. IT IS FINISHED.
It was not until I woke up that I realized what she had written and in what form it was written in. She wrote it as a law case brief, of which I have had to read quite a few this quarter. They consist of the transgression, the defendant and plaintiffs arguments, the law, the explanation of how the law applies, and a simple statement, usually no more than a word, as to the decision of the court. Usually: affirmed or remanded (if the judgment is overturned from a low court decision). Affirmed. She actually continued writing synonymous words until I awoke from that dream back into my first dream in the library. Affirmed, from the highest court, no chance of remanding. It is finished.
Back in my first dream I looked at a friend and asked her if she ever wished she could read a book in a dream because it might say something other than just the words it shows while we're awake. She gave me a very Kati-ish 'you're out of your mind' look. Which I suppose was appropriate given what I had just said.
But then I realized that everything that had been written, every last word, was written on my forehead. It was written over the top of it's self so the only thing you could read at first glance was the verdict, how the whole verdict fit onto my forehead at the same time baffles me because she wrote a lot, but it did. For anyone with eyes to see. Which apparently wasn't anyone except some guy whom I assume was a demon in human disguise, but that's another story.
This is my story. And I am affirmed.
It is finished.
It was a dream within a dream, because I was in a library in the first dream and I fell asleep while working on my homework. It was linear, which means that I was paying attention to one thing as it unfolded and I was completely unaware of any other story or plot in my other dreams while in this dream. I could hear and sense the memory of music and incense when I first woke up and, and I'm glad I remembered then because I only remember the memory of remembering now. It was sweet and clear. Unlike anything else. There was also only one person other than myself in the dream but I never saw her, I could only hear her voice and see what she wrote, although I still have the vague sense that her actual body was there, I just am not able to remember it. Besides, I was much more captured by what she was writing than what she looked like. She wrote a story, all of which I can't remember, and especially not exactly what she wrote, but it's a story I know well.
My salvation.
She started at the beginning, before the beginning, with the parts we don't know. While reading aloud as she wrote, or did she sing, or was it the same thing. She wrote it all in short understandable sentences. Everything. The what, the why, the how. Every step, every reason. From Adam to Noah to Abraham to Jacob and Issac. To David and, in the end, to Jesus. But she wasn't writing the human side. She was writing God's side. For a brief moment in my whole life, the entire reason for everything there is and everything there will be was written before me in black ink that seeped into the parchment.
But the part that made me remember, the part that made me actually get up to write it down, was the part that I carried with me back into my other dreams, the part she wrote at the end. In regards to my salvation: AFFIRMED. COMPLETED. RESOLVED. SEALED. IT IS FINISHED.
It was not until I woke up that I realized what she had written and in what form it was written in. She wrote it as a law case brief, of which I have had to read quite a few this quarter. They consist of the transgression, the defendant and plaintiffs arguments, the law, the explanation of how the law applies, and a simple statement, usually no more than a word, as to the decision of the court. Usually: affirmed or remanded (if the judgment is overturned from a low court decision). Affirmed. She actually continued writing synonymous words until I awoke from that dream back into my first dream in the library. Affirmed, from the highest court, no chance of remanding. It is finished.
Back in my first dream I looked at a friend and asked her if she ever wished she could read a book in a dream because it might say something other than just the words it shows while we're awake. She gave me a very Kati-ish 'you're out of your mind' look. Which I suppose was appropriate given what I had just said.
But then I realized that everything that had been written, every last word, was written on my forehead. It was written over the top of it's self so the only thing you could read at first glance was the verdict, how the whole verdict fit onto my forehead at the same time baffles me because she wrote a lot, but it did. For anyone with eyes to see. Which apparently wasn't anyone except some guy whom I assume was a demon in human disguise, but that's another story.
This is my story. And I am affirmed.
It is finished.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
Sick
I'm sick again. Woke up this morning with my right arm completely asleep, my lower back refusing to move because it was so sore, and a dizzy head every time I tried to move. Bleh, I'm feeling better now but I'm still dizzy and my lower back still hurts. I skipped my Econ class today (which isn't actually abnormal, but at least today I had a good excuse other than: I can cover everything he does from the book).
And I realized, I have the ability to stop. If I were working, or had children, or any number of situations, I couldn't just stop and stay home because I didn't feel well. I'm very grateful for that.
And I realized, I have the ability to stop. If I were working, or had children, or any number of situations, I couldn't just stop and stay home because I didn't feel well. I'm very grateful for that.
Monday, March 10, 2008
Count Down
Okay, I've finished one of my two papers and one of my two presentations. Two down, two to go... plus four exams, but those are timed so I don't have to worry about them until that time. Yes, I'm one of those. It's worked well.
Why am I telling you this? So I feel productive. That's it. Plus I need to stay on track, so really that wasn't it. I made the mistake of talking about Easter dress with my little sister and am now committed to sewing both of us dresses. This is not a bad thing, in fact, I'm thrilled, but remember that separation of the mind in the last post, yeah. I've already made a mock up of her dress and pulled out an old pattern for mine (said pattern is currently laying all over our living room floor). These were both bad ideas. I am now seeing the world in seams and zippers. I've caught myself analyzing how other peoples' clothing is sewn together in class. Ahhh.... I just need to concentrate for four more days and then I will permit myself to actually purchase the fabric.
Why am I telling you this? So I feel productive. That's it. Plus I need to stay on track, so really that wasn't it. I made the mistake of talking about Easter dress with my little sister and am now committed to sewing both of us dresses. This is not a bad thing, in fact, I'm thrilled, but remember that separation of the mind in the last post, yeah. I've already made a mock up of her dress and pulled out an old pattern for mine (said pattern is currently laying all over our living room floor). These were both bad ideas. I am now seeing the world in seams and zippers. I've caught myself analyzing how other peoples' clothing is sewn together in class. Ahhh.... I just need to concentrate for four more days and then I will permit myself to actually purchase the fabric.
Saturday, March 8, 2008
Snow
Yup, it's snowing again. It's pretty, it really is. I wanted sun :( Oh, well.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, it's getting close to finals week and school work has been piling up (oh, the gift of being a procrastinator). I can hardly believe I'll be officially done with school in, count 'em, two weeks! Sigh, 15 2/3 years and it's almost over. Yay! I'm getting my life back.
My story has strayed across my mind a few times in the last week which is a good sign. It means I'm disconnecting from school mode and re-opening my other mode (it doesn't have a name yet but it's the mode of stories, drawing, personal reading, sewing, etc. You know, fun stuff). I try really hard to keep my other mode shut down when I'm at work or school because I have this small problem of letting it take over and not getting any work done which leads to mass panic in the end. Not good. My brain is like a really old computer, there's only so much RAM.
Sorry I haven't posted in a while, it's getting close to finals week and school work has been piling up (oh, the gift of being a procrastinator). I can hardly believe I'll be officially done with school in, count 'em, two weeks! Sigh, 15 2/3 years and it's almost over. Yay! I'm getting my life back.
My story has strayed across my mind a few times in the last week which is a good sign. It means I'm disconnecting from school mode and re-opening my other mode (it doesn't have a name yet but it's the mode of stories, drawing, personal reading, sewing, etc. You know, fun stuff). I try really hard to keep my other mode shut down when I'm at work or school because I have this small problem of letting it take over and not getting any work done which leads to mass panic in the end. Not good. My brain is like a really old computer, there's only so much RAM.
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